my grade...

tuesday 13th january 2009 2215hrs;

last nyte we had the "talk" that we owe each other... my story n grace's story dat is... so, last nyte i know foor sure i did the ryte thing by letting him go... by convincing grace of the thing to do, i convinced myself... and so i know that i did the right thing...

saying no is really hard when you know that you're letting go of the one thatt you love... but i know for a fact that what i am doing is ryte... i know that in the long run, i am doing the ryte thing... what i am doing is that i will be better off in the future.. i know that what i do now will affect what will happen to me in the future... i know that i will be happy in the near future if i feel unhappy now... if u know wut i mean...

my life is better now i think... my conscience is clear... my thoughts are marbled with the guilt i feel because i am letting go... my heart filled with sorrow because i really dont want to let go... but the thing is, loyalty n trust is the most important thing in any relationship... be it in your love life or friendship or family... u know that u can truly be at ease with someone when u know that u can trust them n that u know that they are loyal... nda jaaaaa????? jaaaaaa~~~~~~~

and so, the last few days, i have been hapy coz my girls are here in birm with me easing me out of my sorrow... with them i am happy, n when i am happy, my life seems less ccomplicated coz i know that i can cope when i am happy without him... i know i can do this.. i know i can n so i will... i know i will be happy...

cam salah my post ani.. moving on to a more relevant topic, last nyte i saw my grade, my east asian essay grade that i finished in one nyte... i know.. a freaking 2000 words in one nyte... n so.. predictably, my marks was 51 out of 100... hmmm~~~~ ntah ah... but overall, my average course mark is 58 plg... but seriously i need to read more n really work hard... i have to!!! i know i can do this... sometyms i think maybe i am not meant to be here in Kent coz actually i wasnt the chosen two that were to go to kent... but aku atu majal jua kn k mari coz i know that i deserve it coz my overall was a B. ntah ah.. cam nyasal jua ku cni ani.. i miss home, fell inlove more than once n created probs for me... why do i do this to myself?? ntah lah.. but for now, i am thinking only that i will definitely be working hard for next semester, kurangkan berjoli n stuff... i will try.. but i know i can..

note to self; blajar tah... okeh nyte nyte ppl, gonna mkn soto ka pjah lg.. wahahaha.. nyaman eyh...

adios peeps...