Insecure~~~

You know, even through all the things that reassured me, i am still insecure. Not sure as to what the outcome would be. I am optimistic though... Positive things that were said about me and you assured me, but on the other hand, you are not a penyampai hati person so others can attract you... It is just a matter of circumstances. Circumstances change and I feel as though I have been neglected but in a sense I feel that the feeling is mutual. So how to remedy this?? I guess being honest would probably be the best solution to all this confusion. But being honest is not an option here. I guess I just have to be content as to the way things are at the moment. But how can I!!!!!! I am a jealous person man!!

Love is lost in this matter... So pick me...

What I want when I work...

I want a whole load of things.... I want materialistic stuff, i want spiritual stuff... but for now, I will just list my wants...

1. My own CAR (preferably a Corvette)
2. My own Place (I wanna live alone but I want on weekends n weeknights my house to be full of family and friends. I will have a guestroom for sleepovers!)
3. My own KITCHEN (coz I love to cook)
4. My own MONEY (I want to earn a lot coz I want to afford the previous items.. hehehe...)
5. My own WALK-IN CLOSET (ani for my shoes... coz I'm crazy for shoes...)
6. My own HDTV (so I can watch all my favourite series and movies with my hair blowing with all the noise my Bose speakers on full blast!)
7. My own STUDIO (I want a whole studio for showing my photos that I take with Bianca... also, I want to develop my own pictures...)

I know that it is kinda a lot... but I can dream n I truly believe that without dreams you will have no direction... So DREAM ON.... (I mean it...!!)

Taken for Granted...

Hello people,

Exam's coming soon.... I have not read anything yet... I have not the faintest clue as to what I am studying.. N apparently my Personal Statement is crap... Urgh.... Urang HRD buat bnyk corrections ah... mati kali... atuu ia.... haha...

anyhoo, I kinda need to vent... How come there are inequalities in the world??? I mean, you would think that there should be equal opportunities n stuff ryte??? but noooo... u have to know someone or be a relative of someone to advance in life... Life's a *ITCH...!! i dont like it one bit... soooo unfair....

Other than the negative things di atas, I feel I have significant progress in dealing with my inner demons regarding love.. I have let go of him n I for the first time feel hatred towards Sam on 1st April... n after that, as if by magic, I kinda dont feel pangs of jealousy everytym I was reminded of him... Is dat progress or is dat progress... Say it with me now... I have significantly progressed for the better.... hahaha... i think this could be good, no???

NOW, WHAT i NEED TO DO IS CONCENTRATE N JUST BELAJAR for examss....... wish me luck....