The New Year...

Hello people...

I dunno what the biggie with new year is... oh I know... You get to spend time with people you love, doing things with them and enjoying each others' company... but wait... Is that not a routine thing.. every time you hangout with them you enjoy them... So what's so different about this new year get together thing??? I will tell you the answer... When you spend time with the ones you love on New Year's Eve, you are not merely with them, but you are reflecting the time that has passed on the memories that you have spent with them... You are reflecting all the times you laughed, cried and all the things that happened in between.... So for those who are with their loved ones during this blessed time of the year, cherish it and reflect with good faith that you will have more of that in the upcoming year... I wish you well!!!

TAKZIAH

Takziah to Dyjie and her family. Her mummy just passed away yesterday. To lose someone is hard enough but to lose someone that gave birth to you and were closest to you of all is harder. Parting in this sense is not sweet sorrow. It is sorrow. Bitter sorrow.

So to Dyjie and her family, I feel you. Innalillahi wainna illaihi raji'un... May your mummy be with the gracious grace of Allah SWT. I will pray for her and you and the rest of your family.

...Al-Fatihah...

Sexy, Scrumptious, Savvy, Seasonal, Sweet and Spontaneous Jeans

Hello y'all,

Just now I was talking (by talking i mean chatting) with one of my closest friends (cheksy) and I realised something... I realised that I miss UK. I miss the feeling of home that I have there... I think it has to do with the occupants rather than the place... I miss having my soul sisters around. I miss the feeling of being able to just walk in one of their rooms n just hang out, or talk or eat. I remember that one time when it was near exams. Me n Cheksy was feeling quite down coz we miss home n stuff... Things were happeningin pour houses back in Brunei n we kinda feel lost. We just decided on the spot to just go jalan. So we did. We caught the bus n just went to town. I miss that. I think I miss having that degree of independence that I had with my soul sisters.

So here's a shout-out to my beloved soul sisters: JEANS Clan!!! I love you and I will never forget the times that we've had. It was certainly one of my very best memories. I was at my best when I was with u guys! I miss you all!! MUAH!!

from the top left:
YANIE, GREYZ, SIMAH, GYMZ,DEENA AND NYSSA (THE JEANS CLAN)

I NEED INSPIRATION!!!!

HELLO PEEPS!!!!!!

And so here I am without any drive to cook adventurously... I remember a time in UK when I cooked up a storm. Cooked a feast out of just a few ingredients... after the end of the process of ccoking I feel very satisfied.. But now I somehow lost my mojo... I dont feel like cooking up a storm, feeling that I think of necessity rather than indulging myself to cook up a little feast... I dunno what is wrong with me. I hope that I will indeed have an epiphany soon so that I will have that drive that I had in UK.

Let us hope that I will get my mojo back and the strength to continue surprising people with my cooking. I have faith...

love (wut else???)

Day by day I am wasting my tym not doing anything in particular. truthfully I am in a rut.. truthfully, I miss my friends... and I am bored shitless~~~ pardon my French!

All day long with nothing to do, I watched The Notebook... interesting how movies can automatically bring you to feel emotions that you otherwise would not know u have.. haha... I mean, I didnt know that I had a romantic side until I saw a movie... and that movie was Krish... n yup a Hindustani... as usual... there was a scene there when the heroin (as in the companion of the hero, not the drug!) nearly fell from the top of a kid slide. what they were doing up there i dunno. Most Hindustani movies include scenes that were illogical sometimes... so the said heroin nearly fell and then the hero caught her hand just in time! (oh how fortunate u'd say. Hindustani movies are like that. Very dramatic!) The hero said, "you asked me how I will love you? This is how I will love you. Even if you feel like you are on the verge to fall into nothingness, I will be there for you to catch you, even if you nearly die because of all the pain, I will be there for you. Even if you are near hopelessness, I will be there to light your path to hope. That is how I love you." Sweet no? From then on, I barged on dreaming that I will have my own love, in the hope that someday maybe my love will love me more than I love my love. Up there are my images of what my life of love would look like...

My prayers for me and all the single ladies out there looking for love or something that is bigger than all of us, is that we will in the end find the love that wee seek and the happiness it entails... Amin~~~ Be well sisters...

SOBER: a thought that was kicked in when I commented on Deena's status in fb~~~

I think I have sobered a little over time. I now realise that some things are just not worth the wait... some things are just not meant to be.. hence I am opting for not getting my hopes high.. not on a depressing level but on a more 'sober' level per se. Regarding Sam, I will never again get my hopes up, wishing that I will end up with him but rather I think of him as a friend now who taught me that love might not be so happy-ending like but it definitely will teach you something. good or bad, if you are there in the long run, you have to learn to siphon off the bad things... you have no choice...

so I am still not at that stage of free in the memory of Sam but all in all I learned something from it... I learned to feel...

Zeemah now...

Assalamualaikum everybody.... n hello to the non-muslims....

Since I'm back, I feel very calm... of course, there is the occasional headache caused by others but wholly, i am feeling better.. i feel dat i am calm, i can control everything that goes on with me n such... i am happy with my circle of friends and i feel i done need anomore to add to my circle of friends.. they are a good bunch of people and i feel so very blessed to have them....

as of the other thing... i know i kinda have to immerse myself in my fantasy world that revolves around you so i get a good nyte's sleep, i m fine.. i know you are happy with the other person n not me so i am letting you go.. its okay.. i have faith that there is someone else out there for me... all in all, i know i still cling on the memory of you, but i have faith that you felt the same way about me sometime before if not now. dat memory i will treasure forevermore.... i love you n nothing will ever change that if i can help it.... i love you n no one can ever replace that place in my heart where you currently reside but other than that i feel calm n i have faith.... you'll be my one and only love....

so goodbye love n i will miss you always.. see you in my dreams... where we will have our own happily ever after....