FRIENDS, COMPANION, MEMORIES

The days that went by when I was in Kent were one of the things in my life that I will treasure forever. Even in the midst of trying to understand friends, trying to shake off the feeling of homesickness, the feeling of being abandoned and also the gratefulness that I felt for having them in my life, I will definitely not forget the journey that I was in to try to understand myself. For this I am eternally grateful! The people that I've met, got close to, all the experiences that I had there, I know now that I understand myself more so than before. And I owe this to those who were there together with me & to my family who were absent at that time. Maybe I need for my family to be away so that I appreciate them more and to discover myself more.

And so I feel nostalgic... who wouldnt be? the short 10 months I spent there was like a lifetime for me. So bear with me...

Here are pictures of which moments I will remember.. some of many.... As this blog only allows 5 pics, I chose these moments...I love the people within these pics...except Jul... Thats Simah's daleng!! the only guy in the pic... Here I would like to thank Jul also coz at the time he helped to clean the house, be a sporting guy and making Simah happy at the time... So THANK YOU!!! I pray always that Simah n Jul will find their happy ending...

To the people who have touched my life in Kent, here's a tribute to you!!
SIMAH & JUL, DINA, GREYZ, NYSSA, EYAH and YANIE!!! I am blessed to have met and to have you all in my life!!

Coffee and me~~~

I cant help it if I love coffee... It has been in me for most of my life.. through-in and throughout, through the bad and the good, through hail or storm or on sunny days... I LOVE COFFEE...!!! I cant help it... I do not think less of those who dont like coffee.. But what I know for sure is that I love coffee... I think coffee breath is an attractive quality rather than a negative one... I love talking to a person who has coffee breath.. Rather than think. "brush your teeth man!" or "take a mint or something!!" , I would say, "hmmmm..." in a good way! It fascinates me how you can turn a simple coffee into some sort of art to marvel on... I remeber this one time I was in a coffee joint in Birmingham. I ordered a latte and it was the Christmas holidays. So the barrister did a Santa Claus as a decoration with the foamed milk. When I collected my coffee at the counter, I closed my eyes and inhaled the amazing scent that coffee has and opened my eyes. The barrister was watching me when I did that and so understandably he has this amused smile. He was startled however when I exclaimed, "WOW!!!! HOW'D YOU DO THAT???" The barrister heard me wrongly and said, "oh did I get you order wrong miss?" and I said, "no no!! you got it perfectly! I love the Santa Claus on it..." He laughed and said, "wow, I can see you are a coffee lover!" and I said, "obviously!!" He laughed and said, "you should be a barrister someday..." The moment he said those words I swear I was seriously considering of dropping all and take a course on making coffee... and not the public policy course I was taking! But then I landed unpleasantly into reality and realised that I cant really do that! I was on scholarship for God's sake! I have responsibilities! and so, here I am, not pursuing to be a barrister... But I keep life interesting by being adventurous coffee-wise. I will get a coffee any chance I get... and I will continue doing so, hopefully far into the future...

Everything in moderation...

saw the other day a lot of ppl in Gadong.. it was payday! so naturally all of Brunei in unison went to Gadong. it just so happens that I wanted a Prosperity burger on the same day... turns out there was a lot of ppl in McD. apparently ppl were queueing up for seats... so all the customers who had seats were presssured to eat fast... hahaha.... imgine a lot of ppl eyeing your seat while you were eating... yummy much???? hahaha... so instead ate Ideal stuff.. it's cheper anyways.. Sesiapunnnn.....

ODE TO THE ONE...

To My Love who will remain as unrecognized as always as the whole world is against us:

To you, I might be a fleeting glance,

To me, you are a glance that warrants a lingering chain of meaningful and hopeful stare,

To you, I might just be a whisper in the wind,

To me, you are a shout in the air that wrenches my heart of my breaths,

To you, I might just be a speck of dust in the rays of the sun,

To me, you are a speck of dust that Horton cannot bear to ignore,

To you, I might just be a mere drop of water.

To me, you are not a drop of water but the Niagara Falls.

That is how much you mean to me…

You, who could turn my foulest mood into one of my happiest in a second by just being there;

Yours always through in and throughout,

Zeemah Ahmad.

AN ODE FOR THE LOVE OF MY LIFE; BURDENED BY THE CONFORMITIES OF THE WORLD.

Throughout these years, you have shaped who I am without even realizing it. You , who took me by the hand and made the touch linger in my heart forever. You have indeed taken hold of my mind, body and soul. You will have the hold in my heart, you can wrench it from being burdened with the weight of the world to being the most carefree heart in the whole universe.

My love for you is eternal, you are the final thought in my head before I sleep, you who shaped the imaginary world that I live in… only with the thought f you in my mind do I sleep without worry…

To you My Love… From my heart to you…

Zeemah Ahmad.

Like a fool...

So here I am, in my room just doing nothing. I now have a beautiful and neat timetable for the semester. Just calculated my whole semester results and I just need to have a B in order to graduate with a 2:1. I hope I get it... and pressure of pressure... I have decided to take Masters. But in what I am not sure. I will see the prospectuses from universities all over the world. But I am more inclined to do my Masters in Brunei coz I feel at ease here. But on the other hand, I do not want to do any courses that is Public Policy. So what to do??? I really do not know... But I feel confident that I will know sooner or later.

On the other hand, I hardly find a guy who likes a girl just the way they are. I witnessed a girl (J) who has been the forever friend to this guy and she is a great friend. Always there when he (C) needs her. But in the end, he likes this other girl (D) instead. My friend was devastated. He talks about this other girl to his friend all the tym. and D doesnt really appreciate him the way J does. Such is life... Not everything is peachy keen... It is so sad... J is just there and suppressed her love for him while he rants about D when D doesnt even know C's existence.... Go figure... I hope J will find another who is worthy of her love. C is so oblivious... Like HELLO!!! WAKE UP!!!! But in the end, I have faith that C will wake up and realise the fact that he needs to appreciate J more.

So that's all folks... I am beat... School started three days ago and every night I feel sleepy when the clock strucks nine. Haha... I hate school...

ADIOS....