bla bla bla essay~~

its 8th dec 2008, monday, 0458hrs;

so... guess wut im doing? buat essay... banciku eh... i noe... iatah nda buat awal2.. ani k london tah plang... astah... so anyhoo... yesterday erm..tadi??? aidiladha... so kmi smbyg magrib n isya, betahlil n takbir.. tym raya fitri aritu d kak may ndaku sedih sangat tp td i cried. no one saw but it was quite labat jua. i miss home badly!! skyped with them but not enuff.. wanna go home n paluk each one of them. really really wanting to cz m so stressed out man!! i wanna just drop my course n be free. be free to do anything. take up a cooking course or just la around d rumah in kiarong. i'll be oh so happy!!! oh well....

so lapas smbyg td i was feeling kinda down coz i miss bapa wah. but it was ok after i talked with the gals. it was fun. then we met the French gal yg Islam sama class d IR. her name's mariam. nice gal. very friendly. n she's 19. man! i was used to being the youngest in any groups but m one of the tua ppl here in uni. haha... tp bdn petite. becali...

malasku buat essay eh.. ngantookx lg ne... capi2 eh... owh.. just rememberd... kwn GG ada post jamming session drg. arah studionya!! wc happens to be my bilik! el stupido... islam dh bilikku atu eh. ani kapir tia! capie2. sasaku eh. ani terpaksaku mengislamkan balik nie. haha...

so anyhoo, m feeling satisfied pasalnya i know today that i am loved. i realised that like truly tym td msa smbyg atu. me n d housemates were talking n we were generally surrounded by this general feeling of peace n calmness. like we've accomplished something. we triumphed. we were celebrating a holy event. i love it. so as i was saying, i felt n know dat i am loved. when u say? when everything starts happening... when people smiled at me, when people touch me in an affectionate way, when people laughed at joke sthat i made, when simah cubit pipiku td coz apparently aku comel (huh? rupanya muaku cam tepuruk dlm tudung n telakungku, haha...), when kami smua besalam sma urg n some of dem cium pipi. i feel love. doesnt necessarily shown explicitly but the feeling is nice, no?

so i say, to hell with wht people think. i will smile at people. i will make people feel better. i will make me feel better! so adios n till i write again. whoever is reading this, know dat ppl love u for who u are, regardless of how u look, regardless of how u walk, talk or carry urself. be nice n ppl will be nice to u... dont be cranky!! eh nalehku udah eh.. kn tidur n sambung buat kaja eh..

bye n selamat hari raya!

assamualaikum!