life in general~~

monday 10th nov 2008 1100hrs;

i am sitting here infront of my lappy, eating my cornflakes, my windows open to let the cool air in. i suddenly had an epiffany. a sudden idea. i write about things that are happening to me n all the happy and bad things n such. without realising it, i suddenly feel that i am laying my soul out there. so whilst my soul is out there for the world to see, i will put forth my thoughts as alwez... no one is going to stop me.

i love my life. i love my family. i love my friends. n i love myself. i would not wanna change anything about my life as yet. without everything in place as it is, i know i would not turn out to be the way i am. n so i thank Allah for making my life what it was n still is. i am grateful. i have a good (not perfect) family, great friends n a sound mind. what more can i ask for. i am loving it.

what is life without any bumps? what is life without the ones you love. i raise my prayers for those whose lives merged with mine. i thank you.

i am not an outwardly emotional person. a bit dramatic but that's all there is.. i love drama in my life. but i am an introvert. if i am sad, i keep it to myself. if i am happy, i will spread it around, becoz it is contagious. i laugh, i cry, i pee, i poo (eheheh...oops..) all in all, i am a normal person. there is not a mystery in me. i like people to think i do. but i dont. at least not much.

i try to show people i love them but i feel afraid that people will recoil if i showed my emotions. i am not the most sensible n lovey-dovey person but like other people, i love to be loved. people need to be loved, n that they need to know that people love them. so, my friends n my family, i love you, even if i dont show it, i do.. im just shy...

i think i feel inadequate in some sense. i feel that i am not perfect, that i am lacking in some aspects of my life. but at the same tym, i have faith in God that He created us all imperfect. no one is ever perfect. so i feel content just being who ia m, how i got here n of my stance in life. i am a reasonable person, a bit overweight (a bit? hah!!) but a reasonable person. apakan??

anyhoo, i wish everyone who reads this to just be happy, love your children as you would your own, love yourself coz this is the only life that u have a say in, love yourself coz u r who u are, love yourself coz u r beautiful, love yurself coz people love u. Just Love Yourselves!!

adios muchacho n muchacha... me love u long tym...