its just me talking~~

15th November 0241 hrs saturday;

here i am, just finished watching mamma mia for the second tym round. its fun to watch it again. memories came flooding back. memories of old. of me in high school n the living situation that i am having now. similar thing happening to me. i miss her. badly. like really bad. its just dat i am a person who is passionate about things. if i like a person, i would definitely be hanging on to that person for a long tym. n the fact dat if dat person is currently here makes me like so nervous n questioning my every move... m i saying these things ryte? m i doing this ryte? m i hurting their feelings? i over-analyse sometyms....

so enuff drabs... here's wut happened so far...

today, nora n deena k london. they'll be goin till sun.. same plan as the rest of us are gonna do next week... before ani yea... ada gelora d rmh.. hmmm. urg rmh sja yg paham tu.. but all is clear now, all is understood. insyaAllah... btw, deena, ur email was seriously making me sad n i mean every word dat i msged...it clarifies things n i appreciate it.. luv u leng... juz tell simah n me if anything else is bothering u okeh? okeh.. dats dat.. everything will be fyne... we ol need to be understood, n i understand it now~~ no hard feelings i hope...wanted to cry tym cium ur pipi td but i tahan-ed it... really care for u as if my sis... btw, simah n me atu alum mandi td but we clean okeh... haha... ancur eh.. hehe...

so lapas drg jaln, simah went to my room n offered me choc. maltesers... erm.. sorry but aku alum brus gigi lg.. hehe... so i didnt eat it at all... simah udah brus gigi so ia mkn lh.. hehe... apakan.. nada kna mengena bnr eh c gymz ani...

so anyways, eyah came today! so theres two mazs here... funny.. n the kent men came round d house td n were confused. haha.. who wouldnt be? aku pun confused... tp erm... gatal jua lh eh drg atu... the men i mean... maklumlah twins... guys are so typical~~ erm.. not all guys lah.. gay ones excluded...

so simah's n my east asian assignments siap dh like kemarin.. we want to antar it bh.. but crita2, aher tia ntar... konon kn awal ntar tym pg but u know how me n simah are... asyik kn hangout sja.. nah... lunch tia plg.. hehe...

so we mandied, n ate... simah mkn kuay chap n me mie goreng... yum... n simah tepakai bnr kn kuay chap ah... padas... so of course ia suka... so after kmi ntar assignment, kmi k asda... n we had fun!!! we all bought bju tidur n stuff!! lawa kali ah.. but seriously sexy... i cant even wear mine infront of the girls padahal kmi atu mcm2 dh nampak tu ah... but last last kuar jua lh bju ah... n my girls pun nampak.. hehe.. if u know wut i mean.. haha.. meher eh...hehe.. tani tani sja tau tu... hehe.... esp otw k jamban... haha....or after k jamban...hehe... simah, u n me sja tau wt happened dat nyte ah.. hehe... or day? hmmm. i cant remember... waaa~~~ maluuuu~~~~~

so anyways.. imagine dis... kmi k asda dlm kul 2 lalu n kuar asda dlm kul 6lalu.... haha.. n we missed d bus... so ahir... n kmi shopping lh brabis-ish... maybe 2mrw lagi.. liat lah...i nd my cinnamon whirls... yummy~~ so we bought house stuff but we 4got pepper, which is a crucial ingredient for us.. haha.. gila pepper wah kmi ah..

so we cooked nasi ayam last nyte... n it was a success.. it was yanee's mum's recipe... tabik puan!! abis wah nasi semangkuk periuk ku ah.. d biggest rice cooker we have on board.. haha.. laku lh... thanx yanee's mum!! nyaman brabis.. nanti i post gambarnya ah... pyh wah nada camera ani...

so after dat, andang we plan kn liat wayang arh nyssa's rm. n we did.. us gals in our pijamas n stuff... hehe.. fun!! cam slumber partay!! watched mamma mia, ate like krupuk n dip, watched n laughed, mkn krupuk n dip, laughed again, gambar2, mkn krupuk n dip.. u get the drift... it was fun lah.. really2 fun.. n apparently arh rmh eyah its quiet.. n rmh kmi bising so eyah had a sore throat sal bnyk ketawa.. apparently its her 1st tym ketawa bnyk2 d england... hehe.. funny~~~

so there it is... i laid it on the table.. my feelings, d day we had n such.. wanna do dis again sumtym... i wanna be dis happy foreva, but ol good things must come to an end... eyah trus tdur n we dispersed... it is late after all... i mean, its like 3 lalu wah... simah sleep dh... nyaman th kali tdurnya udah nie... happy sleeping darl... itah ganya msa tani sleep.. after dis, assignments!! ahaha...

so as i said earlier, i was missing a friend... i really2 miss her... i need her badly... i wanna hug her coz there's so much i wanna get off my chest... i tell her stuff n she'll be honest with me... n i with her... i miss her... she's d only one who understnnds me n i wanna understand her but sumtyms even if she's near, she's still far... u know wut i mean? like if i'm talking to her n stuff.. we sumtyms go on msn n chat... she is there, her voice is there but she doesnt really open up. i dont really open up to her though jua.. but oh well.. i hope we will be forever friends!! coz i appreciate her very very much... so dear, if u r in fact reading this, i hope u know who u are, know dat u are owez in my heart, embedded in my soul, thrust deeply into the being that is me... we will triumph~~

so i guess for ppl who dunno me, i might sound like a lesbo but i am straight!! straighter than a ruler n stuff... simah tau tu kan leng? hehe... apakan?!! yea, my pt is i am straight, but it is just dat i am a very passionate person. once i love someone, dat someone may never be a bad person in my book. i dont mind doing things for that person, going to the end of the world for dat person. i love my life, i love my family, i love my friends n i love myself. i love myself so much because of the ppl dat makes me who i am. a not so perfect person but a good person. i like to think dat i am a gd person. ppl generally like to think dat they are gd ppl. dontcha?! u hafta give credit for urself... if u love sumone, love urself enuff to luv dat sumone n u wont fall... insya Allah...

so, last words... I LOVE YOU N MISS U MY FRIEND!!! i wish u r here... by my side coz i nd a hug... as simah oready knows, i like to give hugs n i am owez ready to receive hugs... anytym!! bring it on!! try it... you'd be surprised how a hug can affect you... so my friends n ESPECIALLY YOU, MY DEAREST FRIEND, hug me... coz i will return it with the sincerest love and reckless abandonment delved deep from my heart... so hug me!! i will owez nd a hug... hehe..cam desperate wah aku ah.. but really.. hugs make u feel all warm n fuzzy inside... i like the feeling... so i wanna be d one to give sumone dat feeling... best move ever!!! bear hugz for all of u~~ esp my very special friend...

love extended to my family, my special friend n my dear friends n housemates... i love you, from the bottom of my heart... the nicest bottom part of my heart... love you guys~~~

gymz rox!!! is signing out n wanting to sleep... yawn~~~